Don't you hate it when somebody goes "yeah, I liked you then" and you're left going "BLEAH!!!!! how come I didn't know about this?!? Where was THAT memo, and how did I miss it?!?!? I TOTALLY would have done something if i had known!!!!!!!!!      ............. well shit"  doesn't that SUCK??

BUMMER DAY!!!!!

............ well shit.

     Homecoming shopping...........

                        And all the darn bestest things i could come up with..............

 Thanks so much, you made my night.

Umm.... havent posted in QUITE a while, but i don't really have much to say, so i'll stick in this kinda lame thing, just because i can. have fun reading it, it's hella long.

INSTRUCTIONS:
1. Copy this whole list into your journal.
2. Bold the things that are true about you.
3. Whatever you don't bold is false.

01. I miss somebody right now.
02. I don't watch much TV these days.
03. I love olives.
04. I love sleeping.
05. I own lots of books.
06. I wear glasses and/or contact lenses.
07. I love to play videogames.
08. I've tried pot.
09. I've watched porn movies.
10. I have been in a threesome
11. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
12. I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
13. I have acne free skin.
14. I like and respect Al Sharpton
15. I curse frequently.
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
17. I have a hobby.
18. I've been told I have an (women)applebottom/(men)am packing.
19. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
20. I'm really, really smart.
21. I've never broken someone's bones.
22. I have a secret that I am ashamed to admit.
23. I hate the rain.
24. I'm paranoid at times.
25. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost and scar.
26. I need money right now.
27. I love Sushi.
28. I talk really, really fast.
29. I have fresh breath in the morning.
30. I have semi-long hair.
31. I have lost money in Las Vegas.
32. I have at least one brother and/or sister.
33. I was born in a country outside of U.S.
34. I shave my legs(females) or face(males) on a regular basis.
35. I have a twin.
36. I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
37. I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
38. I like the way I look.
39. I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.
40. I know how to do cornrows.
41. I am usually pessimistic.
42. I have a lot of mood swings.
43. I think prostitution should be legalized.
44. I think Britney Spears is the hottest out of the pop divas.
45. I have cheated on my significant other in the past year.
46. I have a hidden talent.
47. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
48. I think that I'm popular.
49. I am currently single.
50. I have kissed someone of the same sex.
51. I enjoy talking on the phone.
52. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
53. I love to shop.
54. I would rather shop than eat.
55. I would classify myself as ghetto.
56. I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
57. I'm obsessed with my Xenga or LiveJournal or Bravejournal.
58. I don't hate anyone.
59. I'm a pretty good dancer.
60. I don't think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington.
61. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
62. I have a cell phone.
63. I believe in God.
64. I watch MTV on a daily basis.
65. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
66. I love drama.
67. I have never been in a real relationship before.
68. I've rejected someone before.
69. I currently have a crush on someone.
70. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
71. I want to have children in the future.
72. I have changed a diaper before.
73. I've called the cops on a friend before.
74. I bite my nails.
75. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club.
76. I am not allergic to anything.
77. I have a lot to learn.
78. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger.
79. I plan on seeing Ice Cube's newest "Friday" movie.
80. I am shy around the opposite sex.
81. I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
82. I have at least 5 away messages saved.
83. I have tried alcohol or drugs before.
84. I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past.
85. I own the "South Park" movie.
86. I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or LiveJournal.
87. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum.
88. I enjoy country music.
90. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
91. I watch soap operas whenever I can.
92. I'm obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist.
93. I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
94. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
95. I know all the works to Slick Rick's "Children's Story".
96. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy/get a costume.
97. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
98. I have dated a close friend's ex.
99. I'm happy as of this moment.

well, that's all folks. enjoy. maybe some added comments later

I played an $83,000 piano today...........    

Eighty three THOUSAND dollars!!!!!!!!!!!   

$83,000 Steinway Grand....................     

And it was gorgeous............   

And I'm still rather speechless......     

Man oh man. 

Went to the fair yesterday, FINALLY met up with Katy, Anne and Amanda around 6 or so. Dropped my cousin off with my dad.

And since when is Jeff a cadet???

Katy, Anne, Amanda and I went o the John Michael Montgomery concert!!!!!!! It was AMAZING!!!!! We were sitting in front of Kristen too, which made it all the more awesome. Then Anne started getting pissed off when he left the stageafter an hour, complaining that we should have gotten more for our money. And then he came back and just jammed for a while on his camo guitar. and THEN, to top it all off, they pulled a JMM version "Sweet Home Alabama", which was absolutely awesome!! And then, when that was unfortunately over, the four of us went off to just have fun. Amanda met some guy that she KINDA knew, but she couldnt' remember his name. but he was all over her. eventually they left. and the 3 of us wandered for a while. Tilt-a-whirl. DEFECTIVE tilt-a-whirl!!! Saw Chris and his friend Nathaniel and they stood in line with us for the tilt-a-whirl, and then waited for us to get off. we went to get cotton candy and the guy standing there offered $5 if Anne and Katy would fight. He went to go get change and we ran off to hide. tried to convince my parents to let people come over and hang out at our house for a while, but they didnt really want to let us. So the 5 of us headed off to Porter Park to meet up with Steve and Erik and Tom. Hung out there for a while (minus Katy). Then Steve and Erik had to take Tom home. so the 4of us chilled. Chris owes Anne $1 for running through the sprinkler. Then Anne had to leave. So Chris and Nathaniel and I drove around for a while, pulled a couple donuts in the Winco parking lot. and then they drove me home.

All in all, I'd have to say it was a VERY enjoyable evening. And i'm terribly sorry that I couldn't have seen the rest of you

OOOOH YEAH!!!! and I finall saw Kate for the first time in over a year. THAT was intense. I'm definitely taller than her now, and it's really weird.

And the cowboys were gorgeous.

And this morning I had a dentist appointment to get some fillings. And DON'T call me for a couple hours, I don't want anyone making fun of the way I talk, just because my mouth is numb.

Much love,

Andrea

Wow I haven't posted anything in a long time. so ummmm, here goes i guess, guarantee I don't have much to say right now.

My cousin moved in today. She doesnt know she's staying all school year. My aunt hasn't told her yet. I wonder how she's going to react to that news. So she'll be here for a long time, sleeping in the room downstairs. I get to share my room with my mom's massage table i think. Unfortunately, that doesn't guarantee me more massages. Just means I have to stay out while she has clients over, andI have to keep it clean (THAT will be the hard part).

Happy birthday Mike     (You still haven't told me what you want , so let me know or something. I could always just make you a cake! )

Thanks y'all, for being such great friends and just being there.

Special thanks to Andy, for being a driver the other night. To Erik, for breaking curfew for our sakes, and for giving great hugs. To Jeremy, for being understanding. And to Steve, so trying to comfort me while I was crying.

Lots of love y'all,

Andrea

Alright here it is, the moment you've all been waiting for: a formal apology.

I would like to apologize to all of you. Not for what I have said, but more for the way I chose to go about presenting my personal opinion. And the drama that it caused, though for that piece I cannot take full responsibility or blame.

I would also like to state that my opinions have changed since the writing of said entries. Not all of them, of course, but at least some.

I'm no good at apologies. I may have more to say later. But we'll leave it at that for now. And if you still have issues with me, take it up with me directly, or at least have the guts to sign your name on it.

Andrea

 Glad to have that off my chest, and hopefully over with. PLEASE no more drama!

Why do i find myself so vehemently on the defensive, when I did nothing wrong???

Andrea

P.S. Coming soon (i.e.  when I have a chance and feel like it): the moment you've all been waiting for!

To Stop whining:

I thought I made it clear that I do not have romantic feelings for Steve. I am plenty aware that Steve doesn't like me also. And I believe I've already said that that's OK with me. And I'm not "spreading propoganda" I'm simply stating my opinion. I'm not trying to turn other girls away from him. On the contrary, I'm happy for him for finding someone like Annie that he gets along with so well. And I hope that it lasts for them, and if not, I hope he finds someone else that makes him happy. I am in no way trying to cause problems with him and anyone else, becuase he is very close with Annie, and I know that if he were to be upset, she would end up upset, and I really don't like seeing her sad or unhappy. And I am aware that there is reall nothing I can say that will convince you that I don't have feelings for him, becuase you have already shown that whatever I say, you will only percieve it as bitterness stemming from not having him to myself. But I had my chance there, and even though I may have screwed that up, it was definitely NOT meant to be, we had WAY too many issues. And who knows, maybe sometime in the future we can be friends again. or for the first time. We'll see.

Andrea

Hey Cry Baby: I fail to see where I wrote any shit that I didn't want people to see. That would be the whole point in writing things here, so people CAN see it. And as for the things I wrote about Steve, I did say that the things I wrote were only my views. And that if I was wrong in any way, to please correct me on that. And as for the part about him having Anne and me being sad. I'm a sad person, it's in my nature. I'm happy for Steve if he has found someone that makes him happy. I'm happy for Anne for finding someone that makes her happy. I am, however, not sad that I don't have him anymore. I haven't in a while, and that's just fine with me. We had some.... issues. Hell, we still do. Irreconcilable differences. The only thing I'm sad about is that we can't be friends, that we hate each other so much, and that he may bring that up with Annie, and I don't want to lose her.

It's early morning, so I'll naturally have more to say some other time when i dont have to get some sleep before going running in 4 hours. However, here goes.

To the people signing my tagboard: if you're going to be ballsy enough to say the things you're saying, at least make sure you're ballsy enough to either sign you're name or say it to my face. if you cant do that, you probably shouldnt be talking.

I considered apologizing for some of the things i've said in this journal so far, but then i realized, why should i? I believe i stated in a disclaimer of some kind that in NO way am i forcing my views on other people. This is simply the world through my eyes, the way i see things.

I do appreciate knowing your opinions, thats nice, yeah. However, it's not so nice since i dont know who "you" are.

Yes, many of the things here that i've said are similar to things you've said in my tagboard, but at least my criticism is constructive. at least i'm not hiding it. Nobody but me writes in this thing. Everything here is mine. My name IS signed on it. I may be a bitch about things, but at least when I'm a bitch I'm completely a bitch, and an honest one through and through.

And to the person who insulted JAKAM. Even if i just roll with it and let it slide, there's still a J, K, A, and M out there. and they can get vicious. I wouldnt want to be on their bad side, dont earn it. If you're going to insult me, stick with just insulting ME, leave my friends out of it.

Andrea

Ladies and Gentlemen, tonight I have had a revelation.

Everyone has always wanted to know: Why Steve? not just for me, but for all those gorgeous, fabulous ladies that get caught up with him. And nobody could really answer why. Please, correct me if I'm wrong, but this is the conclusion I have finally come to.

Us gals like a challenge. Steve is the human embodiment of a challenge, because of all he puts a girl through. All he can put a person through really. I've seen it happen with guys too. But you can't just be a challenge, he can't just be difficult. If that's all there was, a girl would give up. Every girl likes to think she's made a breakthrough. Likes to think she's made a difference. Likes to think she's changed her man. So you've got to let her think she's gotten to you, she's slowly making her way in and you're becoming a better person. Once you've gotten that, and you've hooked her, then you can slip. And she'll see that you've slipped. But now you've got her, and now she thinks she's seen you change. And now she thinks she could do it again. It's the third time that's the charm really. Then you've got to really get her big time. But if you make it then, then you've got her for a while. A loooooooooooong while.

Guys, PLEASE don't do that to a girl. To anyone, ever. It can really mess a girl up for a long time. Don't think that just becuase Steve here and all the guys that use that technique, just because they get the girls, doesn't mean you should follow their example. Because the truth is, while they may get a number of beautiful, fabulous, terrific, wonderful women, no matter how hard they try, unless they change, they'll never, NEVER, be able to keep one.

Ladies, this is guidebook warning. Don't fall for it. I don't think he even realizes quite what he's doing. But now somebody does.

And Steve, I know you don't like me. But i'm going to apologize for anything I've said here that might have offended you (I'm sure something did). Because it's the civil, mature thing to do, and I'd ike to stop the childishness, even if we can't be friends. And none of this is meant as a jab at you, this is just how I see things. If you have a problem with is, I'd appreciate it if you would bring it up with me directly. Thank you.

Andrea

Y'know, I think maybe I'll become a hermit. A recluse, y'know? Cuz apparently there are a lot of people that don't like me, don't like seeing me, don't like hanging out with me. And since They are to remain secret, and are too something to come out and tell me themselves, I don't know who they are. They could be some of the people I consider to be very close to me. Because that has happened before. So I think I'm just going to save them the trouble and just not call anyone or anything for a while.

To those of you wonderful, gorgeous, fabulous people that actually DO like me, and DO want to see me, you should know by now where to reach me. And becuase I don't know your identities either, you can call me, and I'll see you then.

To those of you afore-mentioned people that don't like me, I'd appreciate you coming forward and telling me so, becuase, as a naturally social kind of person, I don't exactly like being left in the dark. And if possible, I'd like to know what it is about me that you don't like. Then I can decide whether or not it's worth it and maybe change it, and become a better person.

And to everybody, I love a few of you, I like a lot of you, and there are only a few that I have issues with. Catch you on the flip side.

Maybe I'll see you around.

Signed, Andrea (The Girl Formerly Known As Batgirl) (yes, until further affirmation, I'm giving up on everyone, INCLUDING those lovely ladies of JAKAM)

Man oh man. Class of '04 graduates tonight. in like 15 minutes. Congrats to all of you, I reallly admire y'all for making it this far. CUz I now realize just how difficult and stressful that can be at times. I myself, am obviously not going to be there. I'm sitting at home eating frosting.  not even the good, home-made stuff. Just frosting.

Y'know, sometimes i wish i were more ofa happy person. I'm working on it, I really am.

I guess i dont have much to say. this journal isnt going to be as interesting as annie's, but i think its gonna be a bit more....... personal.

-Andrea aka Batgirl aka Cindy Lou